KayeKitty's Korner

My Ex...An Update

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 01:58:24 GMT

A couple of weeks ago, I sent an email off to Kytten--my ex's current wife--

I didn't hear from her for a while, and just guessed they were busy...they were.

I got this in reply today.

"Mark went back in the hospital a week or so ago..he's back home now..but he has been diagnosed with congestive heart failure ..they said they are trying medication but his heart isnt healing and if the meds dont help then they will be putting a diphibulator in."

Please send prayers, good thoughts, etc., their way.

Still going...kinda

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 02:54:37 GMT

First, the last report that I had, was that Mark was back at work, and doing all right. Kytten was sick, but recovering.

I'm going let them repossess my car, it doesn't run anyway, what good is it?

Robert brought us a new kitten, it's cute. I'm glad he saved it from the side of
Airport Blvd, I only hope that I can still take care of it. I mean, how can I take care of a kitten, when I can't even take care of myself?

Physically, I'm all right. Just depressed right now.

I'll be better tomorrow.

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 03:44:28 GMT

Hi, I hope everything is okay for everyone.

Last Wednesday or Thursday my Ex-husband, Mark, had a massive coronary and emergency quadruple bypass surgery.

I don't get online often anymore, because I don't have a working computer, but there are some folks who read this who know Mark---and are just nice enough not to fuss when I used to rant about him. So I thought I'd let you know. :D

He's doing as well as he can be, no complications and all, and should be in a regular hospital room, instead of the ICU, tomorrow. Just keep him in your thoughts and/or prayers, if you would.

Bored...

Tue, 05 May 2009 15:02:57 GMT

Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?

Final Fantasy VII

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 23:06:40 GMT

I'm still here. Honestly, I'm a little down. I don't have any idea if I am doing well, and will look back on this and laugh---or if this is it.

I just had to bitch out my roomie for not taking her medicine correctly. Yes, I used the word 'bitch'.... I had to, because she knows she can't do that... she Has to have the medicine, to keep her on an even keel. No one wants her to be without it. I shouldn't have to, but ... *Shrug*

I love all these people I live with, they've been with me for about 25 years, keeping my head up, keeping me going when everything fell apart. Now, everything here is pretty grim---Barb is working herself into exhaustion, Robert is bickering with his boss, Maggie can't understand why it's important to take her drugs, and the doctor doesn't want me to work anymore.... what's to be done?

I'm tired, truly bone tired. I don't want to argue with the car dealers who can't seem to find me a car (or barbara one, even though the transmission is going out in hers), or argue with my boss who doesn't seem to understand what "Kristyn can't work nights" means.... I wish sometimes that times were still good so that they'd have one less thing to worry about... oh well.

Writer's Block: A Little Green

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 07:09:54 GMT

Top o' the morning to you! Has anyone ever pinched you for not wearing green on St. Patrick's Day?

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Well not since I was way too young to enjoy it properly ~.^

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 06:54:53 GMT

Well some small good news. I'm back online whenever I want to be now. :D I hope everyone is well, and this finds you with no greater worries than whether or not you have something green to wear for tomorrow. :D

Season Greetings!

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 13:21:00 GMT

Merry Chistmas and Happy New Year!

Every one take a moment to be nice to someone this Christmas--especially long lost friends and elderly relative--this is a lonely time sometimes.

*Hugs* and Warm Wishes for every one! This is my Christmas Card this year, so let me say, that my Love goes out to everyone as well!

"...and Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good night."

Sun, 07 Dec 2008 00:23:05 GMT

Just an update. I'm still here, and I'm getting better. The doctors say that I don't go back to see them for two months. *cheers* Now I just have to catch up with bills and everything. Oh, and get Christmas presents for everybody here. :D I'd say it's going pretty good.

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 23:15:09 GMT

Another small victory. I'm driving again, in a mostly whole car. A geo prism. And I've been cleared to go back to work Monday. *Cheers* Part time, light load...I can handle that. So maybe that's two little victories. :D

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 16:45:25 GMT

The doctor was happy with me. *grins* There's a first time for everything. :D

He's given me a passing grade on most things, I still need to settle my bloodpressure some--but for overall, I'm okay.

I'm still not cleared for work, I have to completely--or nearly completely--recover; but I was able to drive what's left of my car home, so that's another victory. :D

I'm not going to talk about the money involved. Everybody just use your imagination. :P

But here's to small victories!

Getting a handle on it!

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 16:27:13 GMT

I'm getting a handle on it. It only took me about five minutes to come up with this post. :D

My doctor's apointment is tomorrow morning, so I'll see if I'm good to go, or if they need do anything else. Or better jet, what I'll have to do now, to get back in the swing of things. We'll see, let's hope for the best. :D

Oh, and people, there is NO excuse! I had a stroke last week, God gave me the grace and I had my roomate drop me off at the polls. I voted my conscience, and walked home.

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 17:59:52 GMT

I'm lucky to be alive.

On Oct. 17th, I was in a car wreck. My leg was bruised, and I thought I was really lucky.

By Oct 28, I had had three strokes.

Now I didn't all of them at once, it seems I had them over several months. The third was the one that "stole the show" so to speak.

So if you don't hear from me, keep waiting.

So close--So far...

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 02:40:15 GMT

I'm still around, somewhere.   Just not online.

We bought all the stuff to set up a network.   The router will connect the computers, but it won't allow the modem to connect to the DSL. *sighs*    So.... no matter what, I'm still a bit too far from a phone line to get online.   *chuckles*

However, we have not only A CAR but TWO.   Barb has a small car, and I've got a Caravan.   Both blue. Not that the gas prices are nice to us, but at least we HAVE transportation if we need it.

This has been my day off, and is the first time I've had in about a month to even SEE online, unless it was over someone's shoulder.

I hope all my friends out there are having a good year and are staying safe in the summer heat.

It's been a bit rough, I hit something of a health snag at the beginning of May---but the good news is that I've lost weight because of it.

Everyone enjoy your summer!

Lots of love and hugs to all!

I'm STILL here!

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 21:12:08 GMT

I hope that everyone had a wonderful Christmas!

I'm not sure I remember most of mine, but it's been pretty durned good here.

We've got a new place to live. (BLESS GOD, I'm not going to live out and die in that HELL-Hole we were living in!) It's a real HOUSE not just another dingy apartment.

The move was accomplished mostly in about three days, and then with the work-weeks being full, and Christmas, I honestly think we're not 100% recovered, but we're getting there.

I've got my own room, (so does everyone) there's a real kitchen with working appliances, and a front AND back yard (with a fence, even).

I truly think this is the best thing to happen to me, and to us (my roomies and I) for a long, long time.

~~even IF we're pretty tired now~~

Much love, peace and joy to everyone---and Happy New Year, as well, just in case I don't get back online before then!

Just to catch up.

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 01:12:31 GMT

I've not been around so much. Count some of it as just plain old depression. Sometimes 'talking about it' doesn't help. *laughs*

There's an earlier post here, about my not giving up on people. About a boy I knew in school? Well, the good news is, he walked into my shop (the laundromat where I work) right before my birthday in October. He looked so much better than I thought he would---and he's the same old brat he'd always been. But at any rate, he's alive and well. I didn't get to do any serious talking, but I was able to let him know how good it was to see him.

Other good news, we have a car. A 1993 Ford Escort. It's not in the best shape in the universe, no, but it still runs which is what it's all about. It would have been a lot nicer, of course, if SOMEONE hadn't gotten annoyed at me for some reason (and yes, I know I can deserve it, but don't think I did this time :( ) and stabbed all four tires then bashed out the back window. *rolls eyes*

After YEARS of talking to my roommates, they all finally got on the bandwagon and are ready to move from this horrible place. Of course, that takes a chunk of change that you just can't fake. (about $1500, to be exact) So if any of my friends out there are in a better position to pray than I am at the moment, we'd appreciate it.

I sort of think that I'm living in something akin to a really pathetic sit-com. Since I don't care for comedy, that would be about my luck.

I really am trying not to be as down and burdened as I feel, honestly.   I'm tired of having to deal with money and personalities. To be honest, I'm just really TIRED.    I'm actually working, I'm doing what I'm 'supposed to,' and I honestly don't think I'm getting anywhere at all.   Like I'm taking one step forward and two steps back.

I've not read anything from my friends of late, so forgive me if my prattling is frivolious or anything.   I hope everyone is having a much better time, heading toward the holidays.

Blessings.

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 13:06:39 GMT

Happy New Years to everyone!

Wising everyone health, joy and prosperity this new year!

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 02:04:50 GMT

Merry Christmas everyone! Love and blessings to all.

Definition of Cruelty

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 19:09:23 GMT

On Tuesday my aging Uncle called my house--while I was at the grocery store, and I didn't get the voice mail until yesterday. So all day long I called and called my Uncle's house, getting no answer.

Yesterday evening I saw my Uncle's wife online, IM'd her, and was ignored.

Today, my uncle called me and I happened to be right by the phone and answered.

He sounded Terrible, first off.

But the thing that has me completely heart broken is that they were HERE, in Mobile, yesterday visiting my Aunt (the one I used to stay with, who has Alzhiemers). I could have taken the bus or walked over there, to see them. I doubt there'll be another Christmas-time with them all here, you know? I had NO idea they'd be here...none.

The thing that breaks my heart, is that my uncle's wife, who has all her facilities, EMail AND all my phone numbers, could have called and told me. But she's so mad at me, she didn't.

He was trying to call me and let me know, and I missed it. My fault, yes, but it was a normal thing. I was just at the grocery store. SHE could have called me on my cell phone, or at work----she would have done this time LAST YEAR, she Did. But now...

I can't even describe this, I just can't. Cruel is the closest I can get to.

At least I got to tell him I loved and missed him. He still loves and remembers me. Honestly, that should be more than enough. I have that. But how I'd have wanted to see them, too.

I don't wish anything bad for anyone, but rather for everything to be right, instead.

Holidays Blues

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 13:33:50 GMT

Okay, yes. I tend to be depressed at the holidays, I admit. And since this is going to be a uber whine, I'ma spare folks: Sunday would have been my Mom's birthday, Thursday's the anniversary of her death. (oh, and to add insult to injury, JUST now I reached into my dresser drawer and found one of my mother's old scarves---I can still smell her perfume on it! This has not been my ...uh... week, month, year?) My family isn't talking to me, treating me like a villian, I suppose, because I "Let Aunt Rachel down" *shrugs* this I'm not sure of, it's just a guess, but the part about them not talking to me is accurate, unfortunately. I don't want to insult anyone, here. This isn't a bitch-rant, just a whine. I love my friends here, truly I do. But I'm miserably lonely. Heh...I know I'm old, fat and never was a party-girl, but even old bitches need love, too, right? *snrks* Don't deserve it, no, but once-upon-a-time someone at least *said* they loved me. I miss all the good part, hugs, snuggling, someone in bed with you, someone to make plans with and cook for, even sex--when it was 'how good can we make each *Other* feel'--just having someone to love and be there with. And, yes, I *know* I'm not alone. I'm going to just guess that Robert feels the same way, among about a gajillion other people, as well, but that somehow doesn't make it better, you know? I'm not that 'loveable' I guess, old, mean, etc. I wonder what those people who are so nasty they leave me in absolute tears at work... I wonder what *they* do to have lovers? They always seem to have a boyfriend, husband or "baby-daddy" around. You know, if I weren't so *afraid* to die---every time my heart hiccups or flutters I nearly have a panic attack (I'm going to scare my stupid self to death, at this rate :P )---I'd just shoot myself and get it over with. "Tired of livin' and feared of dyin'" guh, what a way to be. I admit I'm not a nice person, was a lousy wife, for the most part, but it still doesn't make me feel any less lonely knowing it's all my fault. I...I honestly don't have any answers here. Yes, folks, I'm admitting I don't KNOW something. Matter of fact, when it comes down to real life, I apparently don't know anything at all---not anything that matters. I don't know what to do. :( So? How's everyone else doing? :D

It's been a while...

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 07:48:30 GMT

I hadn't realized how long it'd been since I posted. Sorry about that. Things have been sort of nuts around here. Short-handed at work, the Holidays, and I've been flat out ill for at least 2 weeks---sort of spread out, okay for a day or two, then back to being icky.

That's part of the reason I'm here right now, actually. I'd been feeling really bad the last few days and I started feeling better this evening (at work, of all places) so I came home and got something to eat. (the second time I've eaten 'real' food in over a week) But then I started feeling.. odd. Nervous, sort of 'disconnected', shaky. So I got up and got on here, keeping my mind busy until I feel less weird and more normally sleepy.

Let's see about news... Still we don't have a car. The apartment complex raised our rent, so I doubt my slim-to-none savings will ever get big enough to get one, without a boost. **looks forward to Income Tax next year**

I've only talked to Aunt Rachel a few times since August. At first she called me almost every day, but over time it's fallen to my calling her and hoping to catch her inside. (she hates being in the apartment, she goes and sits out on the porch, instead) None of my other relatives speak to me anymore. My cousin did call me once, to more or less accuse me of stealing/keeping/losing the car's paperwork. As I've *no* idea where it went, but it had been over two weeks since I'd left it in his driveway, I couldn't begin to guess what had happened to it. I didn't bother calling him back to tell him that I looked everywhere for it and didn't have it. (I'm clueless as to what he thought I'd done with it. *sighs*)

To be honest? I miss the old girl. Rach may be a bit off now, but she's still my aunt and I enjoyed the time with her---when my cousin's "Don't Do" list didn't come in the way.

I even miss my uncle's wife, who isn't inclined to be anything but cold to me now.

I really screwed that all up.

I've also noticed that several people haven't talked to me much since then, even when I've been online. Strange how it seems contagious. But that might just be my down mood.

And the job...

Well, it's still a job. Someone's been taking what isn't theirs (like money, for instance) and making life rough for all of us. Then, just when we thought it might be straightened out... one of the girls' father passed away (for which I'm truly sorry) and the other, who was supposed to be fired, but is now not fired, has had a death in her circle of friends. Needless to say, Embyquinn and I have been working a bit these past couple weeks.

My only problem is that this all comes at a point in time when I've had some kind of strange stomach problem and have barely eaten solid food for the past 2 weeks.

My only joke about this is---I hope with all this, I've at least lost a couple pounds!

It's my sincere wish that we get to have a good Christmas here at home. I sincerely with that for everyone, matter of fact. Once we have all the bills caught up, which *should* be next week, we should have some money in time for the holiday. That's what we *hope* for, anyway!

Okay, this is about all the whining I need to do for now. Have a good one, folks!

When it rains, it pours

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 06:46:13 GMT

Blarg.

First off, the car's gone. My cousin 'repo'd' it, or rather, I took it to his house, left it in his driveway and walked off. I was so mad/upset/whatever that I was going to walk home. (honest truth, I think a tiny part of me *wanted* to just drop dead, just so it would be on my cousin's 'record', if you know what I mean) But I'm not truly suicidal, after about 6 blocks in the noontime heat, I wandered into a vet's office that was conveniently placed and called a cab, and got home.

If that wasn't enough, when I got home, we had a visit from the new "owners" of the apartments (I'd not even heard there WERE new ones) and they wanted to inspect the property. AGAIN. We barely squeak by, on a really good day, on inspections. There are four people in an apartment that's really too small for 2 people, no matter what they say. It's always junked up, even if we clean it diligently (which we aren't really good at, to start) So NOW, after a girl quit at the place I work, leaving us in a bind, and my cousin showing his posterior and taking the car (that they *gave* me) back, now we have that inspection thing--"If we don't like what we see, we kick you out"--hanging over our heads.

Folks, this is more than enough. If you want to know why you've not heard from me here, in a while, this might have something to do with it. I've been so down, I don't really even feel like complaining---takes too much energy.

It's not that everything in the past few weeks has been terrible, far from it, but *right now* it's just minor hell. (ask me in a few days to see if it graduated to "Major Hell" or not)

I'm afraid this situation has put more than a few stumbling blocks on relationships in my life. For good or ill, how I feel, treat and see some people who were once rather important in my life for a long time, has been affected in a seriously negative way. (translation: I think some people are out of my life now, maybe for good)

I've got roommates who are going to have to walk to and from work, until we save up for a new (used, of course) car. Everyone knows how much that will be.

I've got an elderly aunt whom I love, (even if she's become something of a handful) for whom I was still running errands, who will miss me, who is breaking her heart out because she can't understand what's going on here.

The hardship on my friends and the hurt it's caused my aunt is what I find unforgivable, and I blame more people than just myself, although I know I've got my part in it, too. (Never fear, I don't come out smelling like roses.)

If I keep going here, I'll get into the whole "Love/Hate" retoric, and I don't have the energy for it right now. But if I thought it would do any good whatsoever, I could Really HATE some people.

I'm heading out for now, I hope everyone else out there is having a MUCH better time of it, than this.

You can't choose your family...

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 16:17:17 GMT

First of all, I want to thank all my friends here,

whitecrow0, feyth, sailorhathor, tsenre, darksakura

And those here at home,

embyquinn and yuugimotoh

For their support through all this garbage with my aunt, and everything else in my "so called" life.

This may not be my last whine or rant on the subject, but it's a pretty important one.

My cousin just told me to give BACK the car that he GAVE me at the beginning of all of this. As he told me it was mine, was even getting the paperwork together to have it transferred into my name---I don't feel this is anything near fair.

YES. Before anyone thinks TOO badly, he BELIEVES he has a reason for doing this. It's mostly (in my eyes) a point of blackmail. He now says that the car was the "Compensation" I received for 'sitting' with my aunt (and here I thought it was that $100 a week he was paying me... hmm? Which he still owes me about $200 of.. AND isn't paying me NOW) and if I can't be over there exactly as long as he wants me there (whether or not I'm at WORK..!!) he'll have to take the car and make "other arrangements."

So. He can take the car, I'll see my aunt when I'm able and NOT be "Beholden" to him for my money or my transportation. We'll just have to buy and old junker car (this is not new to me) and make do.

There are reasons I can't be there 4 or 5 hours every day now, but I don't really think I should have to justify my actions. I *Love* my aunt, don't get me wrong. I'll still go see her.

But I'm a bit OLD for my cousin to tell me to behave or he'll "Take the car away."

I told him to give me a day to make arrangements and I'd call him back with his answer. So today is normal, tomorrow everyone gets to work as usual, by tomorrow evening? Who knows?

Think good thoughts, folks and pray (if you're given to doing so) that I WILL be a good girl and not lose my temper with him. HE might deserve the sharp edge of my tongue, but my poor aunt doesn't.

And that's my day, how's everyone else?

More in the Rachel Saga

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 14:07:58 GMT

Just over a week ago, my Aunt called her son and they took her to the hospital because she was hemoraging from divaticular (sp?) disease.

(I'm familiar with the disease, my father had it, too, it's little knots inside the colon that can tear or get inflamed and cause bleeding... I just can't spell for flip today, anyway...)

She was in the hospital, in intensive care for 3 days. No one ever called me to update me on how she was, nor did they tell me when she was going home. (I showed up to visit her fifteen minutes after she'd left)

The next day, Thursday, right before I went to work, she called and wanted me to go to the store for her. I didn't even know where she was, her house or her son's...and I was right on my way out the door. Needless to say she got angry with me. So, on Friday, I spent a large chunk of my expendable resources on her getting cigarettes and supplies and took it to her, explaining carefully that "I'm off work again on MONDAY"---then went BACK to the store to pick up a prescription that she'd called in, brought it back to her and left. (this all added up to about $50, which I wouldn't mind, except that I don't make that much, to begin with, that's enough to throw all the finances WAY off...)

On Saturday, she called again, demanding that I show up to go get more prescriptions for her (ie: take her out and drive her around, or whatever) I wasn't even there, I was... where? At work. She threatened one of my roommates that she was going to take the car away from me, because I wasn't there when she needed me to be---then she repeated the exact same thing on Sunday, but this time I got the call. She's going to take back her car and give it to someone who will be there to take her whenever she wants to go. *SIGHS* Gotta keep reminding myself, 'it's the disease, it's the disease'

Since she's been back, I've spent about $120 on getting what she 'needed' (I don't think the ciggies are a 'need' but she does, and I know smokers and their addiction) This would have been all right, if I'd have known I'd have to spend it and had budgeted for it---it's all been spur of the moment. That, and the fact that she has her own money, even if not as much as she once did---that or the fact that her son could have given her money for these things, since he knows she's going to need them.

He has a very well-paying job, and he *knows* she didn't have money, but would want/need something---my choices are to say "No, Aunt Rachel, I *can't* do what you want me to" followed by an explosion of frustrated, nigh-hysterical Alzheimer's patient---or I can spend my money, with the hopes that having what she wanted will calm her down. I'm not the person to be the 'disciplinarian' in this case, because she won't listen to me for any reason, I'm her pitiful niece (that's how they all think of me) I'm Lois's daughter, the poor thing, yadda yadda---no respect there at all, never has been, so she's not going to listen to me now.

Ugh, sorry, that was whinging at it's finest, forgive me.

I don't mind going over to help her with her unpacking, but I hate having to draw the line on the money issue. She wants go go places and do stuff, she can't afford---and neither can I. And I can't take her to her bank, because she'll mess up her finances again.

Urrrgh, it's just annoying as heck. And painful to everyone here, when I spend the money for our bills for the monkey on my aunt's back. (with their knowledge, of course, I don't keep secrets from the household here)

Anyway, this is what I've been doing the past couple weeks, and I feel like over-cooked pasta at the moment. Alive, but over-cooked.

How low can you go?

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 02:02:26 GMT

Another day of 'highs in lows,' today.

After taking my Aunt to her doctor's appointment, after my step-aunt bickering with me over *nothing,* before I could even GET Rachel out of her apartment, after having to use my bill money to pay for the Rx's, because all the other (somewhat more wealthy) relatives completely forgot that Rach would need $$ for her medicines, after getting soaked to the skin, getting a call from self-same step aunt who was trying to BRIBE me to help Aunt Rachel with her laundry (DUH?! Where do *I* work? :P I've done her laundry before...), AFTER ending up getting my feelings really, really stepped on by my roommates and feeling terribly unloved, ugly and unwanted~~~~AFTER all this...

I go to Walmart, feeling about slug high---and walk right past my first ever fiance. He and I never really fit, but we were both alone and we fell together. But I see him and his wife in the store, and they both look me up and down like I'm the slug I feel like, and walk off without a word. They looked older, but healthy and prosperous, in a sorta red-neck type of way, but nonetheless, they looked really good.

Oh, why not add insult to injury there, guys?! But I'm glad their life turned out fine. Ironic, huh? The alcoholic Elvis impersonator and his stuck-up woman are doing just fantastic...

*sighs* I quit.