urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kayekitty Somewhere in the Sunbelt kayekitty 2006-08-18T06:51:17Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kayekitty:17564 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2006-08-18T06:51:17Z Blarg.<br /><br />First off, the car's gone. My cousin 'repo'd' it, or rather, I took it to his house, left it in his driveway and walked off. I was so mad/upset/whatever that I was going to walk home. (honest truth, I think a tiny part of me *wanted* to just drop dead, just so it would be on my cousin's 'record', if you know what I mean) But I'm not truly suicidal, after about 6 blocks in the noontime heat, I wandered into a vet's office that was conveniently placed and called a cab, and got home.<br /><br />If that wasn't enough, when I got home, we had a visit from the new "owners" of the apartments (I'd not even heard there WERE new ones) and they wanted to inspect the property. AGAIN. We barely squeak by, on a really good day, on inspections. There are four people in an apartment that's really too small for 2 people, no matter what they say. It's always junked up, even if we clean it diligently (which we aren't really good at, to start) So NOW, after a girl quit at the place I work, leaving us in a bind, and my cousin showing his posterior and taking the car (that they *gave* me) back, now we have that inspection thing--"If we don't like what we see, we kick you out"--hanging over our heads.<br /><br />Folks, this is more than enough. If you want to know why you've not heard from me here, in a while, this might have something to do with it. I've been so down, I don't really even feel like complaining---takes too much energy.<br /><br />It's not that everything in the past few weeks has been terrible, far from it, but *right now* it's just minor hell. (ask me in a few days to see if it graduated to "Major Hell" or not)<br /><br />I'm afraid this situation has put more than a few stumbling blocks on relationships in my life. For good or ill, how I feel, treat and see some people who were once rather important in my life for a long time, has been affected in a seriously negative way. (translation: I think some people are out of my life now, maybe for good)<br /><br />I've got roommates who are going to have to walk to and from work, until we save up for a new (used, of course) car. Everyone knows how much that will be. <br /><br />I've got an elderly aunt whom I love, (even if she's become something of a handful) for whom I was still running errands, who will miss me, who is breaking her heart out because she can't understand what's going on here. <br /><br />The hardship on my friends and the hurt it's caused my aunt is what I find unforgivable, and I blame more people than just myself, although I know I've got my part in it, too. (Never fear, I don't come out smelling like roses.)<br /><br />If I keep going here, I'll get into the whole "Love/Hate" retoric, and I don't have the energy for it right now. But if I thought it would do any good whatsoever, I could Really HATE some people.<br /><br />I'm heading out for now, I hope everyone else out there is having a MUCH better time of it, than this.