On Tuesday my aging Uncle called my house--while I was at the grocery store, and I didn't get the voice mail until yesterday. So all day long I called and called my Uncle's house, getting no answer.

Yesterday evening I saw my Uncle's wife online, IM'd her, and was ignored.

Today, my uncle called me and I happened to be right by the phone and answered.

He sounded Terrible, first off.

But the thing that has me completely heart broken is that they were HERE, in Mobile, yesterday visiting my Aunt (the one I used to stay with, who has Alzhiemers). I could have taken the bus or walked over there, to see them. I doubt there'll be another Christmas-time with them all here, you know? I had NO idea they'd be here...none.

The thing that breaks my heart, is that my uncle's wife, who has all her facilities, EMail AND all my phone numbers, could have called and told me. But she's so mad at me, she didn't.

He was trying to call me and let me know, and I missed it. My fault, yes, but it was a normal thing. I was just at the grocery store. SHE could have called me on my cell phone, or at work----she would have done this time LAST YEAR, she Did. But now...

I can't even describe this, I just can't. Cruel is the closest I can get to.

At least I got to tell him I loved and missed him. He still loves and remembers me. Honestly, that should be more than enough. I have that. But how I'd have wanted to see them, too.

I don't wish anything bad for anyone, but rather for everything to be right, instead.