I hadn't realized how long it'd been since I posted. Sorry about that. Things have been sort of nuts around here. Short-handed at work, the Holidays, and I've been flat out ill for at least 2 weeks---sort of spread out, okay for a day or two, then back to being icky.

That's part of the reason I'm here right now, actually. I'd been feeling really bad the last few days and I started feeling better this evening (at work, of all places) so I came home and got something to eat. (the second time I've eaten 'real' food in over a week) But then I started feeling.. odd. Nervous, sort of 'disconnected', shaky. So I got up and got on here, keeping my mind busy until I feel less weird and more normally sleepy.

Let's see about news... Still we don't have a car. The apartment complex raised our rent, so I doubt my slim-to-none savings will ever get big enough to get one, without a boost. **looks forward to Income Tax next year**

I've only talked to Aunt Rachel a few times since August. At first she called me almost every day, but over time it's fallen to my calling her and hoping to catch her inside. (she hates being in the apartment, she goes and sits out on the porch, instead) None of my other relatives speak to me anymore. My cousin did call me once, to more or less accuse me of stealing/keeping/losing the car's paperwork. As I've *no* idea where it went, but it had been over two weeks since I'd left it in his driveway, I couldn't begin to guess what had happened to it. I didn't bother calling him back to tell him that I looked everywhere for it and didn't have it. (I'm clueless as to what he thought I'd done with it. *sighs*)

To be honest? I miss the old girl. Rach may be a bit off now, but she's still my aunt and I enjoyed the time with her---when my cousin's "Don't Do" list didn't come in the way.

I even miss my uncle's wife, who isn't inclined to be anything but cold to me now.

I really screwed that all up.

I've also noticed that several people haven't talked to me much since then, even when I've been online. Strange how it seems contagious. But that might just be my down mood.

And the job...

Well, it's still a job. Someone's been taking what isn't theirs (like money, for instance) and making life rough for all of us. Then, just when we thought it might be straightened out... one of the girls' father passed away (for which I'm truly sorry) and the other, who was supposed to be fired, but is now not fired, has had a death in her circle of friends. Needless to say, Embyquinn and I have been working a bit these past couple weeks.

My only problem is that this all comes at a point in time when I've had some kind of strange stomach problem and have barely eaten solid food for the past 2 weeks.

My only joke about this is---I hope with all this, I've at least lost a couple pounds!

It's my sincere wish that we get to have a good Christmas here at home. I sincerely with that for everyone, matter of fact. Once we have all the bills caught up, which *should* be next week, we should have some money in time for the holiday. That's what we *hope* for, anyway!

Okay, this is about all the whining I need to do for now. Have a good one, folks!